I trust Him, today.

God allows us to experience the low points of life in order to teach us lessons that we could learn in no other way. ~ C. S. Lewis

*sigh*

His purpose in my life....

..... happiness? not always.

...joy? yes, but not just on good days, on bad days too; and sometimes that joy doesn't mean a smile, it just means peace.

....showering me with daily blessings? on how I my childlike heart wishes this was His sole purpose.

....making me more like Christ? ummmm... yep, every day, in everything, He is trying, when I a willing, to shape me, change me, teach me.

I guess I hadn't realized that sometimes the ONLY way to learn a lesson that He wants to teach is to have tragedy strike. Quickly, painfully. Sometimes taking your breath away. Sometimes dropping you to your knees. In tears.

From a loving God?!?! Yep. The God I know does this. He does this FOR me, not TO me.

And I am okay with that. I trust Him. Not because I have to. Because I choose to. I want to. That is when I see Him fill me... with hope, peace, strength.... and sometimes a smile.

Through the tears I trust Him.